I applied for a new position

In the totem pole called work I have applied for a new position. I'm nervous because I have it or I don't.simple right? Wrong. My imagination is an evil evil thing. It shows me all the beauty and rewards of getting and it shows me all the mental self abuse if I don't. I dream optimistically which isn't half bad for a pessimist. I even bought fancy clothes as a good omen. Well I find out in the next few days so I can stop this madness shortly.